Madeleine Gray

To wander and wonder whilst wandering and wondering:
Flâneur, flâneuse, flanoot.
Fumble and bumble –
Trodden and treading – retreading.
Retreating, rereading –
Rinse and repeating; rinse and –

Distraction.
Reaction..

Circle back,
Keep going until the surroundings become familiar.

A broken dam, a fainting couch –
Weeping Well Winnicott –
Tools to soften the blow of looking back.

Push, pull, push, pull –
Print, paint, print, paint –
In, out, in, out *Smoke break*
Pressure, release, pressure, release –
In, out, in, out.
Print, paint, print, paint –
Pin, pain, pin, pain
Ouch, wait!

A happy place -
Pretty flowers,
Dumb things.
Chew; digest,
Breakdown and shit out.

How dangerous is routine?

A coocoo clock
Mind lost
Turned around –
Does it feel different this time?



Unravel, untangle, untethered
Soft touch, tread lightly

Are we done yet?

Nope -

Daymare/nightdream,
Naptime, sleep time –
Lucid dream time:

Float on,
A boat on,
A baby goat on –
Hey diddle diddle
Cat and a fiddle
@%*&
Freudian slip into a ditch
Mind in the gutter
Choke, splutter.

Blow bubbles
Balloons and swoons
With trips to the moon.
Young Jung
Vise vers[a]/es

With silver bells and cockle shells,
And pretty maids all in a row.

[Cue crickets chirping]